Monday June 23, 2008

I am a little happier today than the last time I posted. I am getting a fill today and I cannot wait to not be able to eat! I know that is crazy but it's so true. I need the restriction so badly right now. I am hoping to lose down to atleast 215 (minimum) by August 24th 2008. I have only drank a home made smoothie so far today because I cannot eat before my fill. I hope I do well! Wish me luck :-P

Sunday June 8, 2007

I haven't been on here in a couple months and it is the same reason as before. It is because I have been doing TERRIBLE on my eating. I am back to 236.5. I have no idea what I need to do. I wish I has someone who was strong willed who could help me and I could possibly help them. I am so sick of being obese yet I continue to keep myself here, in this unhealthy state. I really wish I could have lost 100 lbs by my 1 yr surgery anniversary but I will be lucky to make it back to 50 lbs lost. I need to get a fill ASAP. I really wanted to be under 200 by August 24th but there is no way in hell that is going to happen. Anyway, I am going to try to get out of this rut and help myself. Sorry for blabbing about nothing but I am feeling extremely depressed right now.