Sunday June 8, 2007

I haven't been on here in a couple months and it is the same reason as before. It is because I have been doing TERRIBLE on my eating. I am back to 236.5. I have no idea what I need to do. I wish I has someone who was strong willed who could help me and I could possibly help them. I am so sick of being obese yet I continue to keep myself here, in this unhealthy state. I really wish I could have lost 100 lbs by my 1 yr surgery anniversary but I will be lucky to make it back to 50 lbs lost. I need to get a fill ASAP. I really wanted to be under 200 by August 24th but there is no way in hell that is going to happen. Anyway, I am going to try to get out of this rut and help myself. Sorry for blabbing about nothing but I am feeling extremely depressed right now.